Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Happy New Year!!!

As I sit here and reflect on 2014, my heart can't help but be conflicted. On one hand I'm sad and my heart is broken but on the other hand my heart is peaceful and excited for the new year. 

2014 was the year of "loss" for me. I experienced loss like never before. 

In Feb and March we lost our sweet furry babies. They were like our kids and we had Buster  for 12 years and Gizmo for 7 years. 

At the end of March we had our first IVF. What an amazing experience we had, but sadly it was unsuccessful. 

In July I received the worst news of the year my Mom passed away! I miss her so much every day. Its true what they say the first holidays are tough! My first birthday without her, I waited all day for the birthday call that I knew would never come. 

In Nov we decided to do another IVF. This round was a little tougher on my body and emotionally. The result was the same as the first one, unsuccessful:( 

Through all the struggles, questions and sadness I knew that God still had a plan. I still can't say exactly what Gods plan is for Mark and I on the baby front. We will continue to wait on him and follow His lead when we feel prompted. 

It the midst of my heartbreak we still saw the goodness of God all around us. We knew He was ever present! 

"Thank You" to all of my faithful readers! I've only been blogging for a year. My blog has had over 5000 views over 9 countries!! 

As we begin a new year I just want to share what I had to cling to most in 2014! Without God nothing is possible. You will face heartbreak but God is your comforter. God will never leave nor forsake you. God will make good come out of bad situations. Without anchoring my hope in God I wouldn't have become a stronger women of God, a better wife, a more caring friend and a better person all around. 

Happy New Year! May 2015 be your best year ever!!